The line begins to blur

There are things that I said I would never do There are fears that I cannot believe have come true For my soul is too sick and too little and too late And myself I have grown too weary to hate The more I stay in here The more it's not so clear The more I stay in here The more I disappear As far as I have gone I knew what side I'm on But now I'm not so sure The line begins to blur Is somebody on top of me? I don't know, I don't know Isn't anyone stopping me? I don't know, I don't know Well I'm trying to hold my breath I don't know, I don't know Just how far down can I go? I don't know, I don't know I don't know As I lie here and stare The fabric starts to tear It's far beyond repair And I don't really care As far as I have gone I knew what side I'm on But now I'm not so sure The line begins to blur