Silently hurt

As time go on , some memory went further and further or disappear without my care . All the memory about her are so clear that seems it happened in yesterday ,what different was that all these seems so light . I cant went to asleep deeply into the night , why , i want to cry . What remind me of her ? I remember that the first day i met her , i start to love her , and soon love deeper and deeper . She is so beautiful and lovely that so many boys like her including not a few outstanding boys . But i was so in common that i have even no encourage to talk with her . Why ? I have almost no word with her , she dont like me even hate me , she never care about me But i love her so much that i even thought if necessary i may go to dead for her . I dont dare to talk with her face te face . I write so many letters that show her how much i love her . But she never reply whatever i say . At the begining i always had little hope that with the deeply words she may reply , with so many times disappointed and heart break i was use to the no reply sent . The days with her always so sad . Now two years had pass , in the world without her , i like a outstanding sailor floating in the sea without land . The energy of young make me work hard , i pass one by one difficult so beautiful . I never tried even eager to overcome more difficult . Some time , i feel so trouble . I only know go forward and never stop . Pass this difficult , another come . Where is the end ? What i work hard for ? Where i can go ? I dont know . How can i believe that the sky without her may more beautiful ? As a strong man ,In the world with her i can create another beautiful sky . promised myself . In the world without her i must take more attention on my self , create another beautiful sky . .