i have a boyfriend who grew up with me.his name is shawn.i always thought him as a friend,until last year,when we went on a trip from a club.i found that i fell in love with him,before that trip was over,i took a step and confess my love for him,and soon we became a pair of lovers,but we loved eachother in a different ways,i always concerntrated on him only,but to his side there were so many other girls,to me he was the only one, but for him,i was just another girl......... "shawn,do you want to go watch a movie ^_^ ?" i asked "i can'T :/ " "why? you need to study at home ?" i feel disappionment grabbing my hand "no i need to meet a friend "he said "ummm....ok...." I said sadly he was like that.he met girls in front of me,like it was nothing, to him i was just his girlfriend. the word "love" only came out of my mouth.since i know him,i never heard from him say "i love you" before to us there weren't any anniversaries at all. he didnt say anything from the first day...and contininewied till.;...100 days,,,,,,,200 days.....everyday before we say goodbye...... he would hand me a doll everyday without fail....i dont know why.... then one day......... Me: um shawn i.... Shawn: what..don'drag just say..... Me: i love you Shawn: you...umm...just take this doll and go home..... that was how he ignored my "three words" and handed me the doll....then he dissapread like hes was running away....the dools i reacived from him ,filled my room,one by one.....there were many. one day came my 17th old birthday..when i got up in the morning,i pictured a party with him,and stranded myself in the room waiting for his call,....but lunched passed.....dinner passed,,,and soon the sky was dark...he still didnt call,it was already tiring to look at the phone any more.then around 2 am in the morning. he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. he told me to came outside of my house,still i felt joy and i ran out happily.. Me : shawn>... ^_^ Shawn: here take this ... again he handed me a dool,,,, ME : what is this? Shawn: i didnt give this to you yesterday ,so iam giving you now,i am going home now,byee.. Me: wait wait!...do you know what today is? Shawn: today? huh? i felt so sad,i thought he would remember my birthday.then he turned around and walked away like nothing had happend. then i shouted.. "WAIT!!" Shawn: do you have something to say? Me: tell me!,,,tell me you love me.. Shawn:.... huh?? Me: tell me... I put my pathetic self behind and clung in to him.but he just said a simple cold words and left. "i don't want to say that .....i love someone so easily....< if you are desprate to hear it the, find someone else..." that was what he said,, then he ran off,my legs felt numb...then i collaspsed to the ground...he didnt want to say it easily....how could he...i felt that ...maybe he is not right guy for me,,, after tah ...i stranded my self at home crying!...just crying...he didnt call me, altought u was waiting!..he just continued handing me dools everyday outside my house... thats how those dool...piled up my house every day.......