Before I ask for help with my problem, I probablyshould tell you thestory behind. long back,in 2002-2003......in almost all vacations i used to go n stay in my aunt's house which is 20 km away from my home...and the above mentioned sweetheart was my aunt's neighbour(at dat time she was not a sweetheart for me...just friend)..her name is aparna..we were both 8 or 9 yrs old dat time...though we dont openly call each other boyfriend and girlfriend..we just did like one another..she had been my first ever girlfriend and the longest while remained frnd(2001 -2003)...we had a lots of fun...played a lot ...plucked mangoes and had it together...played a lot in small streams...had fishing together.....she even gave me many expensive toys frm her own collection on knowing my toys craze...I know that I must sound like a psychotic wing-nut, or that I am simply too young to feel this way and perhaps you think I am being overly dramatic, but that's just not the case. our intimacy deepened day by day. after 2003..I have been changed to another school...and on vaccations I was forced by my parents to engage in other extra curricular and related classes in holyday seasons....so,it was difficult for me to go my aunts home on holydays...on 2006 I got selected in Jnv entrance test and was admitted in navodaya which is a residential school where the holyday patterns are totally different...eventhough I got some small vacations I ddnt visited my aunts home...instead I go to my grandma's home where so many children are there to play wid me...and gradually I started leaving behing those memmories wid my sweetheart and my life changed to another scenario...new friends..new circle...all new...but still she was there some where deep in my heart. years passed by...2007,2008,2009,2010,2011,,...joined new college ....2 yrs over....and now..2014..im 19 yrs old now.in that short period,certain small disputes where there in between my family and my aunts family...so my visit to there was totally restricted by my parents eventhough my aunt called me for enjoying vacation there. last week,when I arrived home after my exams ,i found my aunt there ....she was there for inviting us for her daughter's engagement....and I was so happy in the intention dat, when I go for function,I could meet my sweetheart who is my aunt's neighbourand that function was yesterday-june 15 -2014. I was so nervous yesterday morning becoz,u knw ...im going to meet my sweet heart after a long 10 years. I woke up early yesterday(very unusual case )..first,I prayed 5 mins bcz I was tensed whether she will recognize me or not...or even if she recognized she wud bother to talk to me or not...any way...I had my bath n wash, groomed myself much more than usual...sprayed 2 or 3 different perfumes alast reached my aunt's home after several years. nostalgia....nostalgia....full of nostalgia.....those mango trees...little streams...meadows was still there untouched...I dont know how to express that feeling I saw my sweetheart's house there bt ddnt gone there ....I just sit on a chair in my aunts home where the function take place in the intension that she will come there