I think of u & I can't stop the tears fallin. But I can't let u know. U musn't ever know just how much I'm really hurtin. u musn't knw that thinkin of u tears me in two. I want u to think I'm strong. I have 2 be strong. 4 u. I 'm happy. I'm strong. I'm a survivour. No, it doesnt hurt. Maybe if I say it enough i'll convince myself its true. I can put up these fronts. I can act out a lie. cause I love u. nd I can't bear da thought of u sittin... starein... bleedin.... cryin.... Lovin u like dis terrifies me. My feelins terrify me. I 've neva loved any1 like dis be4. nd I neva will. Not eva. I miss u. With every breath.... with every heartbeat.... with every tear... I miss u. Lyin ere now... writin dis... I'm smehow not me. My words, yes.... but it's not me writin dem. I'm not me. It's cold, it's dark, nd I'm alone. nd I'm scared. I 'm terrifeid. Of nothin. Of nothin except myself. I look at u...I have a picture of u.. I LOVE U