Well I feel that too many bad things happened to me this year... Like I didn't get the job I desired. I went for several written tests, interviews etc. Yet my luck wasn't so good

What really got me down was that some time in August I got shortlisted for a 3 day assessment from a telecom company in Brunei, the only telecom company in Brunei, and I failed that.
I got so depressed because, being very competitive, I just couldn't believe that I lost the battle to my friend - who I felt was more or less has the same capability as me. But now I understand that she's more talented than me. And I'm no one compared to her. I got sick after knowing I failed to get in the job
Another sad thing was that I had to face the truth that I had to give birth way too early from my EDD, and had to deal with premature babies pressure. All because I failed to appreciate my pregnancy. :/. Before that I had to stay in the hospital for a month, as according to the doctor I was having a high risk pregnancy.