In My Dreams you are Mine but In My Life you are J

In My Dreams you are Mine but In My Life you are J by kris1920 2014/07/14 17:28
Am I dreaming??!!
That was the first thing that popped into my mind
as soon as I woke up. Stared at the clock beside
me, it read 9:45 am. What the hell? I whispered.
Its already morning but its still so dark. I then
tried pinching myself whether to see if this was all
real or not. I yelled wincing at my own self inflicted
pain. Oh yeah, its definitely real alright. But why
do I still get a sense that this is still all a dream.
Everything is real, but my mind feels like its still
dreaming. That feeling you get when everything just
seems to be out of place. I walked into the
bathroom thinking all I need is a shower which I
then proceeded to do. The water rushing down all
over my body, it feels good. I got out shortly after
5 minutes or so, then I went back into my room to
change. As I was sitting on the bed putting on my
socks, my eyes stumbled upon our picture that was
sitting on the nightstand. It was a picture of the
two of us next to each other smiling and holding
hands. Memories began to compile and I could feel
my heart sink as my eyes were getting red. I stood
up, went to the nightstand and picked up our
photo. I held it in my hands, and hugged it tightly. I
know you don't love me no more but i don't know
why i still care for you & i still love you. Then i tried
to tell myself that I'm good without you, strong
without you, even though I'm not. I then put the
picture back down, faced down this time. Hopped
into bed and started to think... Will i ever be able
to forget You !